I'm glad you're my friend, in sickness and in health. But let's try to keep it healthy, alright?
Thinking of you today, kid.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
Sobre todos las cosas que me amo...
Kitten,
Right now you do not have reliable internetz or phone. I wanted to sneak a message to you in a place where I hope you will see it.
Things are hard for me right now, and I find myself really needing to hear your laugh. John and I have been talking a great deal lately about what it would mean to me to be able to cut my hours back so that I'm hardly working, so I can spend more time doing school and more time on my craft. We will be getting to a point soon where this may be possible, and I will be sure to keep you in the loop. For now, know that I have a grand plan, and a business idea or two that I'd like to discuss with you the next time we can carve out some much needed KatandSteph tiempo from our schedules. (Nosotros estamos chicas que somos muy occupados todos los diás!)
I am really enjoying speaking Spanish, and am planning a vacation where my newly acquired language skills will be useful! I haven't figured out exactly where I want to go (there are so many choices I'm interested in) but I have a couple of ideas brewing, and one of them would involve you, so we should talk about that, soon, too.
I love you. Other than that, I have lots more to say, but I think I'll put it in a letter, instead.
Hasta luego, mija.
-Opie
Right now you do not have reliable internetz or phone. I wanted to sneak a message to you in a place where I hope you will see it.
Things are hard for me right now, and I find myself really needing to hear your laugh. John and I have been talking a great deal lately about what it would mean to me to be able to cut my hours back so that I'm hardly working, so I can spend more time doing school and more time on my craft. We will be getting to a point soon where this may be possible, and I will be sure to keep you in the loop. For now, know that I have a grand plan, and a business idea or two that I'd like to discuss with you the next time we can carve out some much needed KatandSteph tiempo from our schedules. (Nosotros estamos chicas que somos muy occupados todos los diás!)
I am really enjoying speaking Spanish, and am planning a vacation where my newly acquired language skills will be useful! I haven't figured out exactly where I want to go (there are so many choices I'm interested in) but I have a couple of ideas brewing, and one of them would involve you, so we should talk about that, soon, too.
I love you. Other than that, I have lots more to say, but I think I'll put it in a letter, instead.
Hasta luego, mija.
-Opie
Sunday, November 25, 2007
A Day Without XBox...
I want to spend some time with you, crafting. I want some time to focus on you and our friendship and aging and what we're doing with ourselves as we get older. I want to make things with our hands and laugh and drink tea and feel relaxed.
Things are calming down here, if only from a loud roar to a dull one. John is working hard on his mental state and my expectations of him, and I am working hard on my patience and understanding of his disease.
I started out with so much to tell you, but the short of it is that we just had Thanksgiving and I gave thanks for you, my kitten.
Now, I just want to share those thanks with you while we giggle about something inane.
Things are calming down here, if only from a loud roar to a dull one. John is working hard on his mental state and my expectations of him, and I am working hard on my patience and understanding of his disease.
I started out with so much to tell you, but the short of it is that we just had Thanksgiving and I gave thanks for you, my kitten.
Now, I just want to share those thanks with you while we giggle about something inane.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
O' Kitten My Kitten
Kat,
My life is full of bullshit right now. The long and the short of it is that Andrew did something really really shitty, and I got really really mad, and then later that night he yelled at John for no reason, and when he apologized, it wasn't an apology as much as it was an insult. John and I responded with anger, which is really all I've had for the situation for over a week now, and Andrew responded by publicly slandering me in a way that let all my friends see it but not me. Now, what I am left with, is being 29 and feeling just like I did in High School, that the people who surround me aren't good for my peace or sanity or heart. I need more support right now. I need more kindness. I need a gentleness of spirit and soft words and someone who loves my little family of John and I and our pets and I can't find it here.
Times like this are really lonely, especially when I think of you and Jesse and the life you're building, and of Seattle and how I miss it. John hates Seattle, doesn't want to live there even for a while, and I don't know how to tell him that I need to figure out a way to get out of here. I love Bellingham, I love my little town tucked away by the ocean, hidden by mountains, secret and calm and smelling of salt and fog and trees. I love the people downtown and I love that I feel "home" here, but I am so tired of being constantly "ON" here. I need to be "off" for a while, in small letters, small sounds.
I feel helpless and strung too tightly lately. With school and my marriage and our crazy ass roommate situation and now with work exploding like it is always bound to do because that's what this shop does, I feel like no matter which step I take it will be the wrong one.
I worry about you, too, Kitten. I worry that you don't tell me things because you don't want to unload on my already heavy heart. I worry about us, about how we're going to be as mothers, as wives, as friends as we get more and more claiming our attention.
What I do not worry about is how much I love you and how much you love me. I do not know how to explain to you that your love is my one constant, my one rock, the one unshakable thing I have to cling to when all else is dark and I ache because I feel battered and exhausted.
I miss you so much.
My life is full of bullshit right now. The long and the short of it is that Andrew did something really really shitty, and I got really really mad, and then later that night he yelled at John for no reason, and when he apologized, it wasn't an apology as much as it was an insult. John and I responded with anger, which is really all I've had for the situation for over a week now, and Andrew responded by publicly slandering me in a way that let all my friends see it but not me. Now, what I am left with, is being 29 and feeling just like I did in High School, that the people who surround me aren't good for my peace or sanity or heart. I need more support right now. I need more kindness. I need a gentleness of spirit and soft words and someone who loves my little family of John and I and our pets and I can't find it here.
Times like this are really lonely, especially when I think of you and Jesse and the life you're building, and of Seattle and how I miss it. John hates Seattle, doesn't want to live there even for a while, and I don't know how to tell him that I need to figure out a way to get out of here. I love Bellingham, I love my little town tucked away by the ocean, hidden by mountains, secret and calm and smelling of salt and fog and trees. I love the people downtown and I love that I feel "home" here, but I am so tired of being constantly "ON" here. I need to be "off" for a while, in small letters, small sounds.
I feel helpless and strung too tightly lately. With school and my marriage and our crazy ass roommate situation and now with work exploding like it is always bound to do because that's what this shop does, I feel like no matter which step I take it will be the wrong one.
I worry about you, too, Kitten. I worry that you don't tell me things because you don't want to unload on my already heavy heart. I worry about us, about how we're going to be as mothers, as wives, as friends as we get more and more claiming our attention.
What I do not worry about is how much I love you and how much you love me. I do not know how to explain to you that your love is my one constant, my one rock, the one unshakable thing I have to cling to when all else is dark and I ache because I feel battered and exhausted.
I miss you so much.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
And I'll burn this whole city down....
Kat,
I feel really removed from you lately, and I think it's mostly my fault. School is so all consuming. It's been a very very long time since I wanted this badly to do well at something, and all my energy has been on that and my marriage. With John's friend still living in my craft room (he'll be out by month's end...) and no time, I can't get in there to make anything with my hands, which makes me really antsy.
I miss your soft way of speaking and your full throated laugh, and I hope to see you soon.
The weekend before your birthday? What say you? Are you busy? Can I see you then?
Much Love,
Opie
I feel really removed from you lately, and I think it's mostly my fault. School is so all consuming. It's been a very very long time since I wanted this badly to do well at something, and all my energy has been on that and my marriage. With John's friend still living in my craft room (he'll be out by month's end...) and no time, I can't get in there to make anything with my hands, which makes me really antsy.
I miss your soft way of speaking and your full throated laugh, and I hope to see you soon.
The weekend before your birthday? What say you? Are you busy? Can I see you then?
Much Love,
Opie
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
it will all be ok
Steph,
It will all be ok. Maybe not the way we'd want it to be, but I do believe that eventually everything will be ok.
I was thinking of visiting you in Bellingham this weekend. Would that be a good idea?
big love,
k a t
It will all be ok. Maybe not the way we'd want it to be, but I do believe that eventually everything will be ok.
I was thinking of visiting you in Bellingham this weekend. Would that be a good idea?
big love,
k a t
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